oh yeah...

I actually just sat down to check my email real quick before I work out (I am totally slacking lately!!), but after seeing my post from yesterday I couldn't just leave it at that.

Could I be any whinier? And the thing was, I wasn't even really sad about how things turned out because I know it's for a reason, and most likely if we had had to force Cracker Jack to come over, he would have been less than pleasant- and I didn't want to deal with that this weekend. I think in trying to cap all our goings-on into a short blog entry only make me sound like a ranting, venting whine-bag. ;) I'm not, really. Big Hunk read it and said "You sound like you're upset with your birthday" and while I don't think I said anything that straight out said I was sad, I did sound like I was complaining. So I'm sorry! lol

Actually I am totally looking forward to my birthday- just relaxing and spending time with those I love most, at the place I love the most! (Which is totally why I could never live far from the beach-I'd lose my mind!) It will be a lot of fun.

The kids are watching a little tv right now as they eat their breakfast, and I'm all dressed and ready to work out. I have been doing so badly with working out (I have only done one other workout this week), so I need to get in gear. Makes me feel awesome that I'll be in a bathing suit tomorrow. AND I just found out that our friends and their two kids are coming out tomorrow as well. "Hi again, how are you? Have you met my cellulite?"

Because that's totally ALL you can see. ;)

Kids are a blessing, right?... Right??

I just don't even know what's going on right now! Things are so freaking weird right now and between my head spinning to keep up and being on the verge of tears (or full on sobbing, it goes back and forth), I feel like I'll be admitted to the funny farm anyday. Let's just say I had a huge post drafted earlier, and in just the past couple hours things changed and it all became old news. ;)

In a nutshell, because I have no desire to dwell on ANYTHING right now... My 30th birthday is on Saturday and despite original plans to have a nice birthday party, it has now become a trip to Malibu (that part I'm super excited about) with just the 4 of us and my parents because no one else can make it. Even Cracker Jack, because he ever so sweetly let us know today that if we didn't pick him up at the time HE wanted (instead of our court-apointed time, 3pm), he would not be coming over. (Then telling us that he didn't want to come over anyway, and that it's his decision if he comes over, not ours. He's sweet, I tell ya.) This is all after I specifically asked him last weekend to make sure he doesn't cancel on us, because it was important to me that he be here for my birthday (I can't even remember the last year he was here for it).

What else? Oh, my sister isn't coming this weekend either because she already made other plans to visit a relative of her husband's (hello- we're celebrating ON my birthday. It's not like she didn't know!).

I think that's it. Besides being kinda broke and I don't even know if I can go get my toenails painted (I'm not even asking for a pedicure!), I think that's it. And really- it's not a pity party. Just a lot to take in at one time. I was totally on the ball earlier and had no problem with all of this, but it all just snowballed and now I'm in a crappy mood. ;)

AAAaaaugh.

My head is pounding right now. I just got done working out, and most times (if I've really pushed myself) I end up with a terrible headache from getting my heart rate up so high. I know that's the sign of not being so smart, but on the other hand if I don't push myself hard enough, then I lose motivation and quit. Being I'm not losing a single ounce, who knows which is worse. *sigh* Tonight I did Plyometrics, which is hell. It's pretty much an hour straight of nothing but squats and jumping. I love it though at the same time because you're sweating like a freaking pig and you feel like you've run a marathon when you're done.

Our date night last night was awesome!!!! My husband is so great. We couldn't decide what do-- boring old movie & dinner? ice skating? mini golf?-- so Tom just told me to be ready in 15 minutes and we would be leaving. He wouldn't tell me where we were going until we were almost there (all he would tell me was that it was in Orange County and had an "A" in the name. Not so helpful.), but he took me to see Mamma Mia. I didn't really know what to expect because even though it's been out for years and I knew it was based on the ABBA songs, I didn't know any more than that. I guess that's why I had had no desire to see it before now. But good gracious how I've been missing out!! It was SO freaking great. It was so much fun!! Besides having a cool story line and being hilarious, then end was almost like a cool concert with all the songs and dancing (even the audience!), and I didn't want to leave. :) I told Big Hunk we have to see it again! Of course they are only in town until this Sunday so that's not likely, but hopefully another time. But, we are going there next week to see Go Diego Go Live. ;) Not sure how happy I am about that, but the kids will love it. So anyway, it was such a great night! It is so hard being away from my kids though, and I need to get used to it. I guess maybe because it's been so long since we've left them, but I was trying to figure out last night how in the world we'll be gone in November for 5 days! I was reassured though reading my book A Wife After God's Own Heart (looove that woman!) and being reminded how important this time is for us.

Well, it's 10:30pm and I need to get to bed. I had planned on taking a shower after working out but I'm off my workout high and am content going to bed stinky. ;)

just blabbin

I have about a million different things I could be doing right now. But I'm not.

I was supposed to go to a women's bible study tonight at church (that I was actually really looking forward to!) but hubby and I just decided to have a date night instead. I don't remember our last date! Hmmm. Valentine's day? No, couldn't be that long. I don't know, it's definitely been a while. We still have no clue what we're going to do though, so should be a fun one. ;) We always just go to dinner and a movie and I do want to see Rush Hour 3 (LOVE Jackie Chan!), but that's not really quality time. Maybe we'll just go knock over a couple of old people. That's always a fun time. ;) (I'm totally kidding. I love old people. Really. We'll knock over little kids instead.)

Not much has been going on for us. My stepson leaves on Thursday for college, and turns out we aren't going to see him again before he leaves. MAJORLY sucks and I've been very mad about it, but it's not going to change. In a nutshell, he made plans with us for tonight (I was going to miss my church event so I could see him), then he cancelled last night saying he forgot he had made other plans. Uh huh. He's really overwhelmed with everything though, and we are, as always, the first ones to be cut out. So, I'm bitter and hurt, but really not all that surprised.

Speaking of bitterness, I'm having an off day. Eating like crap and haven't worked out yet (nor did I last night), and I'm tired of seeing no results. It's only been like a month though, so I know I'm just jumping the gun. I mean, I can see results in my arms and legs (beneath all the cellulite) and I can see a difference in my endurance and strength, but seriously- I had Ikey 3 years ago!! Will this stomach ever go away?? I finally broke down and just made an appt for a trial session of Arasys and I'm eager to see what happens. Dude, I'll spend a million dollars (okay, or not) if I can get in shape! What's so stupid is I don't even mind doing the work-- I enjoy working out!!-- but I'm just getting so discouraged! But I suppose this happens to everyone, and right about this time. I know it's happened to me in the past. Right when you're in that "in-between" stage of working your butt off and seeing progress, you just want to throw in the towel. Well I guess that's not totally true. Because as much as I love working out and am frustrated with what I see in the mirror, I know that no matter what the working out is good for me health- no matter how little the results. So, I know I'm still bettering myself. But I can be mad today. ;)

Well, gotta get something done!! Or at least do my hair for my date night! :-p

Once upon a Toosday

Well I had every intention last night of sitting down, posting a couple pics and writing an entry about all the sadness of my day (we dropped off R after his 5 day visit, and he is leaving for college next week *sniff*), but our evening suddenly consisted of a trip to the mall with all 6 of us (the 4 of us plus my SIL and nephew), dinner, and a late-night workout (as always) for Big Hunk & I. Now here I sit with a whopping 2 minutes to myself after just doing today's workout (half-arsed if you must know) and about to get in the shower. Big Hunk ran out to get a haircut and the kids are napping because we are heading BACK out to the desert in a little bit. We just got back from Palm Springs on Sunday, and now we head back out- to La Quinta, a bit further this time- to hang out with some friends of ours that have a vacation home out there. It will be lots of fun though and we should be back on Thursday morning, when we pick up Cracker Jack (younger stepson) for our weekend. The kids are SO looking forward to spending time with their new friends and swimming for another 2 days straight. I wonder if they'll eventually grow gills with all this time they spend in the water?

But anyway, yes, R will be gone in 8 days. I can't believe it, and I've spent a good portion of the last 24 hours in tears. When we dropped R off at his mom's yesterday 4 of the 5 of us (Ikey is the heartless one) were sobbing. :( But God-willing we will see R for either lunch or dinner before he leaves, and I'm looking forward to that. We are going to miss him SO much. He was receiving a lot of crap from his stepdad about visiting us for those 5 days (I think he hoped that once R turned 18 he's want nothing to do with us. Whatever.) so as much as I'll miss him, I look forward to him being on his own and really learning who R is.

Well, I have to cut this short. The kids just woke up and I still have to shower and pack a few more things, and Big Hunk's going to want to leave as soon as he gets home. God bless!!

Tho thore.

Why does working out have to be such a pain?? Why can't we just get married, have kids, and go back to the carefree, high-metabolic bliss of the old days? I remember in high school I would sell candy and literally eat like 6 candy bars a day. Reese's, Snickers, Skittles, you name it. Now, I feel like I'm going to pay a lifetime for the low-fat choice of ONE York Peppermint Patty. But anyway, I worked out yesterday morning- chest & back- and I am still so sore. I wanted to get up and do my cardio (plyometrics- makes you want to die) but I feel so wiped out that I'll have to do it tonight.

We are picking up R (my oldest stepson, the 18-!!!-year old) today, and he'll be with us for the next 6 days. He was able to fit us into his schedule a bit since he'll be leaving for college in a couple weeks. :( I get emotional whenever I think about it. Things just won't be the same. Which I guess might be a good thing being things were never that great, but part of our family will be gone. When he does come to visit it will be on his terms and when he wants (IF he wants), and it just seems like he'll be more of a visitor rather than part of our happy little family. Maybe I'm just analyzing it all too much. But he's growing up regardless. *sigh*

So as I was trying to say, we are hoping to go out of town for the time that R's with us. We were supposed to use our friends' house in La Quinta (out past Palm Springs), but they changed their mind and now we are scrambling to find somewhere to go. The hard part is that now we have to find something that's pet-friendly, so one house in Palm springs that we loved for Mother's Day we now cannot do. Big Hunk emailed a few houses (well, their owners anyway. The houses themselves are lousy at replying to emails) last night, so we'll see.

Well, just wanted to check in. I need to take the kids to Target and get some cleaning done before we pick up R. Hope everyone has a great day!! :)